It was almost 10pm when I wrote this last night and I was meant to be working on an assignment (well, I was but my internet was slow so I figured, ‘why not type a post about how excited I am for my birthday coming up?’). I realised this week that there is less than 2 months to go until I close chapter 23 of my life. I’m excited mainly because I like fresh starts and I strongly feel like 24 is going to be magic for me, but I’m also nervous because I don’t really like that in a world where everyone is concerned about the next person’s personal accomplishments and/or financial status, I might step fully into 24 with nothing but another year of college and my hobbies and passions to list and no financial freedom apart from my little allowance I get from my mom because I’m a student.
*Deep sigh* you’re doing amazing, Lydia, and that’s all that matters
This year of my life has been on giant learning adventure: I stood up for myself against my mom, I survived sexual assault, I got back into dating, I started YouTubing, I (tried to) blog consistently, I started prioritising my mental health regarding my studies, I’m passionate about my college course, I started focusing on this novel I want to have published someday, I restarted my spirituality journey and retaught myself what it is I want to believe in and… it’s a lot and I’m proud!
Since the end of this chapter of my life is nearing, I thought it would be nice to milk it for all it’s got; I want to share some of my goals for my birthday build-up and see if I can have each one ticked off by then.
I want to give myself a few minutes of peace and quiet each day to really clear my mind and see where it takes me. This was inspired by a vide by Russel Brand and what happened to him due to daily meditation.
Work out HIIT style:
Because I have a Freakum Dress I want to wear if I go out on the night of my birthday and I’d like to slay in it.
I’m currently reading a crime novel by DEE Henderson and it’s really good, and I have an e-book I’ve been asked to review (romance genre. Swoon!). all of this might inspire me to expand my horizon in my own reading.
My cellphone camera is going to work overtime from now on. I want to document the end of this part of my life for some reason. I’m leaning more towards video clips but I think pictures will have to do… I don’t know.
Write a letter to 2020 me for my 25thbirthday:
Based on this year and what I hope to have accomplished by the end of next year, basically. Think of it as speaking things into existence.
Get out of my comfort zone:
I’m getting the hang of being true to the woman I am (thanks to a good friend of mine who’s tasked herself with giving me pep talks every day to remind me that I’m a baddie, even on my worst days). So, I’m going to be practicing owning my views and opinions, not apologising for everything, standing my ground and striving to be heard and understood… and basically update my makeup routine to upgrade inner me’s energy so I can upgrade my love life and career goals lmao.
loving, kind, happy, at peace, accepting, fluid in how my life unfolds… I want to keep discovering myself and my worth in all aspects of my life and just not settle. For anything that doesn’t make my heart metaphorically glow.
I’m hoping I get into new routines through this little challenge. I think it’s a very fruitful, much-needed-for-growth list and I can’t wait to come back and say I did it.